When I found out that I was pregnant I was not the least shocked. I had told my boyfriend who I have been dating for almost a year at the time. he was so happy at first. and as the time went on he was changing his mind about things. I was supporting him and me and I could not support someone else. I was still going to school and working a full time job.
when I finally made up my mind that I was going to tell my mom what was going on I was 16 weeks pregnant. I had told my boyfriend that I was going to move back in with my mom and that I was still planning to have this baby, but that I wouldn’t be able to support him so that he had to move back home. I never thought that he would punch me in my stomach and say that he was more important than my unborn baby. I cried for 2 weeks and I didn’t tell my mom but she suspected that I was pregnant. now I was almost 20 weeks pregnant and I couldn’t do it all by my self, so I went with my exboyfriend who was 4 years older than I and got an abortion. because I was almost half way through my pregnancy they had to dilate my cervix and then I had to go the next day and get the abortion. that day I was so scared I remember when I was at the abortion clinic how cold it was and the therapist asking me if I really wanted to do this. and all I kepted saying was that I had no choice and my friend begged me not to. I could feel some cramping but not much and I got up and I was bleeding alot. I remember walking to the operating room and I remember when they started the IV and how I looked up and told one of the nurses to tell me what was the sex of the baby and to tell the baby that I loved it and I had no choice. from there I don’t remember anything but when I woke up in the recovery room crying and checking my stomach to see if it was a horrible dream. I remember screaming from the top of my lungs and saying I wish I could die too. I fell into a deep depression and I bearly made it to senior year. I tried to commit suicide. I didn’t care for my self or anyone else at the time I was a murder. I rember going to the police station and saying that I had murdered someone and saying that I killed my own baby. I thought that I would never be happy again. now im 19 years old my first year in college and im 5 weeks pregnant and happily married to my exboyfriend who accompanied to the abortion clinic. I could never think of getting an abortion ever again!!
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