“After loving my children I can’t believe what I have done and I often find myself in depression with no one to turn to….”
HI, I had an abortion when I was about 16 years old. I am now 26. My mother found out I was pregnant and made me have an abortion. I didn’t know what to do. I woke up each morning thinking I was in a bad dream. I was so young I didn’t even know what was going on or what my opinion should even be on abortion. I was forced to have one because it would ruin my life and embarrass
the family.
I got pregnant again at the age of 19 and my parents didn’t know so I had another abortion. I was kind of made to think it was a way of life. A woman waiting to get an abortion with me asked me why I was getting one, because I was plenty old enough to have one. I didn’t even let her words faze me. She had three children already and now I wonder why she was there, too.
At the age of 23 I had got pregnant again. I decided to have my baby. I never would regret my decision on giving her life. I do how ever regret not giving my two unborn children a chance. I was young and naive. I have recently had my fourth pregnancy. I give my abortions allot of thought. My mother was not happy for me when I announced I was having a baby, either time. Although, she is thrilled to death that they are here. I feel she made me to think that being pregnant is not a good thing. Like it’s some evil state to be in. After loving my children I can’t believe what I have done and I often find myself in depression with no one to turn to. My husband today is the same person I have been with through all my pregnancies. He tries to make me see that It was okay. That I did what I had to do. I don’t know if he tells me this to prevent me from further going into insanity. They were also a part of him. I will never support abortion. I was pro- choice but I have learned that pro-life is the right and only choice. When your young and don’t want to be pregnant you don’t think of that little being in the same way as when you do when you grow older. If my girls get pregnant young, I hope I have the strength to stand by a decision we can all live
with.