I had an abortion this past spring. My baby would be a few weeks old if I had of had the strength to stand up to social pressures and just give it a chance at life and love. I know some people looking to this website are either considering abortion or trying to understand it,
I really hope you don’t walk away thinking everything you’re reading is correct. I hope you seriously take some time to yourself to let it all sink in, without the pressure, without the drugs that the hospital gives you and just figure out what is good for you? And how a life with a baby is possible. My sister had a teenage pregnancy and we live in a lower middle class family. She was left alone by her partner, and I can honestly say that with hard work and loving family/friends she was able to finish school and college and begin her own business within 9 years…I am very proud and almost envious of her…I love her and my niece.
I however, wasn’t able to process everything. I made a serious connection with the baby, I even promised I would love it even if its father did it approve of its being. I am an educated woman with no real work opportunities; in fact, I am not finished school yet. Living at home with my family was a major reason, that and my then boyfriend was a teacher in a catholic school system. I seriously regretted my abortion. It causes me to be depressed and change as a person all together. I stopped hanging around my friends or anymore who tried to make me feel good or happy, because I didn’t think I deserved the attention or love. I never visit my family and it’s usually short visits…I have increased my alcohol intake significantly…I would rather be living happily at home with parents with my baby, than being someone who is living at home unhappily, with a drinking problem not to mention mood swings and depression. I have serious anxiety issues now too. I wake up crying and end up messing opportunities up with work or social functions…I have serious sleep issues and I try to shake it off and smile and act like I’m okay, but I’m really not.
Please, if you can raise the baby you are carrying, just do it or at least think about it. If you can live with it, then go ahead….I thought I could live with it then 6 months later I am still severely upset and cry. You can’t escape the reminders of life, someone is going to show you a picture of their ultrasound at some point and what can you say? awwwwwww how cute, I killed something that look just like that picture you are smiling at…..seriously….it’s rough, unpleasant and you like I said, you cant escape life, it’s all around you and it will remind you.
I was at a funeral for a baby 2 weeks before I terminated my baby’s life….that attributed to my pain on many levels….I still talk to my baby, I thought it was a girl, but I will never know. She / he is in the hands of my loved ones who went before me on the other side…they are with her soul and I know she forgives me and will come again when and if I am blessed with life inside me again, she will enter my body and I will give her the best life that I can, I long to feel her again, to feel her love and the connection….
if you are a boyfriend reading this….offer love and only love and support….don’t even mention doubt into your g/f, wife or friends ear…it’s wrongful and causing a lot of problems on top of the hormones. If it’s right she will know…but if she has time to think about it, I know she will make the right choice….men become fathers and fall in love with their child when they see it, women do when they feel it.
If you won’t love it, then simply let someone else love it. but don’t leave her, support her as a friend, if anything.
I hope this helps anyone out
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