A woman who had an abortion at Planned Parenthood at age 17 recalls:
“The door opened. It was my turn. I went into an office where I gave them some information. Then they led me into a room where they performed a sonogram, with the screen turned so that I could not see it. From there, I went in to yet another room to watch a video that was supposed to tell me about the procedure.
I say “supposed to” because I couldn’t concentrate and could not tell you one thing that was said. I was taken to a curtained off area and was told to remove all of my clothes and put on a gown. Everyone was so cold and unfriendly.
I opened the curtain once I was dressed and then was led to a room with a table and equipment. I laid down and began to cry. They asked me what was wrong and I told them that I did not want to do this. I had changed my mind. I wanted up.
The doctor began to tell me that I didn’t need a baby and that I had my whole life ahead of me.
I began to cry harder and they strapped me down. I asked them to please unstrap me and let me leave. The anesthesia was administered and I fell asleep to the sound of their laughter. When I woke up, I was hurting physically as well as emotionally. All around me were the sounds of other women sobbing.”
Years later, she got married. But she suffered :
“I had anger, bitterness, and resentment living inside of me. It touched every part of my life from my marriage to how I parented my children. I yelled a lot and cried a great deal. I would often cry myself to sleep and not even realize why I was crying.”
Eventually, she found healing through a post-abortion support group.
Shawn Carney traveled to Croatia to set up a 40 days for Life campaign there. He wrote:
“I especially remember one older woman from the town of Krizevci. I came to this town to speak, desiring to motivate people to start their own 40 Days for Life in their own town. After my speech a lady approached me, deeply touched, and said, “This thing you do, this is great. Thank God you’re here. I did my abortion 30 years ago, and I still remember, every time there is a piece of bread left on the table, my own child to whom I did not grant life. I will come to the vigil every day.”
Shawn Carney The Beginning of the End of Abortion: 40 Inspiring Stories of God Changing Hearts and Saving Lives (Cappella Books, 2018) Kindle Edition
The boyfriend of one young girl describes what happened after his girlfriend took the second of two abortion pills:
‘The day she took the final pill and came back to my flat to wait for it to pass truly drew a new line in the sand. The hours of pain she suffered, it utterly ripped me apart to see her writhing in agony, interspersed with trips to the toilet as the process started. It culminated in one trip from which she didn’t return, all I heard was sobs, drained of energy she couldn’t even cry with the force the pain deserved. I soon discovered that it wasn’t the pain the sobs were for, it was for what she had seen in the toilet. A recognisable shape. Then flushed away.’
From one woman who had a second trimester abortion:
“When my parents found out, my dad took me to DC where abortions are legal until 20 weeks. I was put in a large room with about 20 women and one by one we were taken back for the abortion and then brought back in. Each woman came back holding their stomach and crying. The process was quick and heartless.
I suffered for two years with depression that went untreated. It has been the most painful and traumatic experience of my life. But I want anyone that reads this to know I do not regret my choice. I did choose life…I chose my life.”
A Christian woman who aborted a twin pregnancy describes how she felt before and after the abortion:
“The nurse told me that I was having twins and it scared me to death. How could I raise three when I could barely raise one on my own? I based my decision purely on being able to take care of them financially. I was also ashamed of myself and thought how others would react to see the daughter of a minister pregnant again one year after having her first child [unmarried].…
The church played a huge part in my life. My parents are both ministers, so I was not a stranger to God’s word… Even though I knew God then, I did not have the faith back then that I have now to step out on.…
For years, I suppressed the guilt of turning away from a gift from God. I thought about how old they would’ve been and wondered how they would’ve looked. These thoughts would bring instant shame and guilt upon me. I struggled mostly with my faith in God. How could I speak to others about what God wants if I was unable to do it?”
LaDina Anderson Killing Grace: A Rise To Restoration (2016) Kindle edition
Michelle Borquez wrote a book about grief after abortion. She says of her own abortion:
“There has been nothing in my life quite as painful as the memory of my own abortion. It was too painful to bear. I couldn’t even imagine myself having done such a thing. I had buried the memory of it.”
Michelle Borquez Abortion to Mercy, (2013) Kindle edition
Anastasia Wansbrough describes her abortion by pills in an article in Vice. The article said:
“Anastasia Wansbrough lived through a veritable horror show when she had a medical abortion in 2013.”
She did not bleed for two months, then went in for an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed that the baby was dead, but still inside her. Then she began to bleed.
“Painful cramps coursed through her; she took an extra strength Tylenol as the doctor recommended.”
Wansbrough describes her ordeal:
“I was wearing a tampon at the time when all of sudden the power of a contraction pushed the tampon out and blood splattered all over the floor. There was constant pain but at every 60 second mark I felt the most pain I have felt in my life. I couldn’t cry, I could barely moan. It left me breathless.”
“I continued to have sex and became pregnant for the second time, less than six months after my first abortion. This time I had a friend who was also pregnant, so we went to the abortion clinic together. … I remember everything about that day. I remember looking at the doctor’s face, and I remember that he never spoke a word. I remember how it felt looking around the cold, impersonal recovery room and seeing the rows of beds occupied by girls and women like me. I remember the nurse who went from bed to bed, making insensitive comments and jokes.”
Michelle Borquez Abortion to Mercy, (2013) Kindle edition
She had a third abortion a year later, and now deeply regrets her abortions .
One woman who had an abortion as a teenager claims she doesn’t regret her choice. But she writes:
“It was a whole lot worse than anyone ever told me it would be or I ever thought it would be. They explain the procedure, but they don’t tell you how it will feel. They give you the choice whether to you want to be knocked out or just have the pelvic area numbed by local anesthesia so you can’t feel much. I went with a local, and it felt awful. The actual procedure hurt. It seemed like it took forever, but I guess it was only a three-minute procedure. While I was in there, I heard another girl totally freaking out. It was scary, man!
But I will never, ever forget the feeling I had when it was all over and everybody cleared the room and they told me to get dressed. I felt like dirt. I felt like the lowest thing. I went through the grieving process right then, feeling very alone. I was devastated emotionally… Having the abortion taught me that there are definite consequences for our actions. This was the first time in my life that I had to answer for anything. And you have to make a choice, you know.”
Julia C Loren The Note on the Mirror: Pregnant Teenagers Tell Their Stories (Grand Rapids, Michigan: Zondervan Publishing House, 1990) 70 – 71