“I just want people to know that it’s not over in the operation room and they should think long and hard about their decision.”
I would just like to say I am glad someone put this website up, only I wish I had seen it two years ago when I had an abortion. I know it was probably the right thing to do considering my age (14). But it was not my choice it was my mother’s ….. I remember on the day of the abortion I refused to go to the clinic I was only forced to by my mom, my dad and his girlfriend told me I didn’t have to go through with it if I didn’t want to but the next morning my mom arrived to drive me and my ex-boyfriend to the clinic and I was in tears at the thought of what I was doing to my child but in the end I had the operation done. It was on of the most painful things I had ever felt. The procedure itself was only two minutes long but the pain physically and emotionally was enough to last me a life time. I threw up after and the recuperating room and my ex-boyfriend bought me roses and gave them to me, and to this day I have kept them dried in a safe place, and I also kept a copy of the ultrasound that is one of the most valuable things I own. I thought my pain and suffering was over that day but I was wrong ……. that night at my ex’s birthday party I fell asleep on his couch and I had this dream of my child screaming and when I found her she was torn and covered in blood and woke up crying. For months after that I still got dreams when ever I slept, and developed a slight case of insomnia because I was too scared to sleep because of my dreams. I am over the worst part now but I still do get dreams at least once a week, and I wish I had never had the abortion. I just want people to know that it’s not over in the operation room and they should think long and hard about their decision. I hope this helps some people as well on their choice.
~Lydia
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