I had an abortion 15 days ago. I was nervous as I could possibly be going in that clinic. I had put the abortion off for a long time. I sat there for a long time waiting. The nurse finally called me back and gave me half a valium and said she needed $425 from me then. I gave her the money and continued to wait.
About an hour later she then gave me a celebrex. About 30 minutes later, the doctor told me to get undressed and he would be in. I looked over the room first. I saw the machine they used to suction the baby out. I could have started crying then. I replayed the whole decision in my head. I just knew I had to go through with it. He examined me and did an ultrasound. He then said “why did you wait so long?” I said what do you mean? He said you are 13 and 1/2 a week pregnant. “For 300 more dollars I can help you with this problem.” He then said are you going to pay the money? I told him I had to call someone to bring me the money and asked him if this increased the risks of something going wrong. He simply said get your clothes on and then we will talk about it. He made me wait about 2 more hours. When I got back there he said I had to just remain calm and not to freak out or he wouldn’t do it. I got undressed and tried to prepare myself. He told me not to cry and not to make a sound. “SILENCE”, he yelled. That had to have been the longest 10 minutes of my life. The pain is indescribable. I was sweating so bad from the pain and pail. When they allowed me to get up and made a make shift diaper from the blanket I laid on I went to the restroom where I sat on the toilet and prayed for the Lord to have mercy on me for at least 30 minutes. I put my clothes on and waited on a couch for him to come back in. He said get up and walk around and eat a good lunch it will help the pain go away.
I really wish I wouldn’t have done it! I regret it everyday. I cant help but think of what my child would have been like. The physical and emotional pain of my abortion will be with me for the rest of my life. I would advise anyone to rethink their decision of an abortion. I cant take my decision back, and it will weigh on my heart for the rest of my days.
Anonymous
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