Postabortion woman: self-loathing consumed me

From one woman who had an abortion:

“For years, abortion remained a dark place within me, an indefinable root of my pain because it’s consequences didn’t exist according to those “helping me” with my bouts of depression. Unbelievably, abortion was never brought up at any level by my doctors as a possible negative experience in my life, let alone the linchpin to my pain. The despair I felt when I had my abortion was nothing, according to the therapists and according to a society that accepts abortion as a legitimate answer to pregnancy. There was no grieving for me because the baby I was carrying was just “a blob of tissue,” “a mass,” “a cluster of cells” that, in my case, was adamantly unwanted by the father,

So, if abortion was such a walk in the park like everyone said, why couldn’t I stop the self-loathing that consumed me? Why did I have to have surgery for my infertility and suffer eight miscarriages before carrying my last two children to term? Why couldn’t I just emotionally “reappear” in my life as if nothing had happened, like I was told other post-abortive women did? What was wrong with me? Why did I feel so alone? Why couldn’t I let go?”

Jennifer O’Neill Healing through God’s Grace after Abortion (Deerfield Beach, Florida: Faith Communications, 2005) 1-2

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Sarah is a member of the board of The Pro-life Alliance of Gays and Lesbians.
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