From a woman who aborted her four-month-old child:
“I really believe in God… I feel like I was compromising my religion a little bit, because I know that sacrificing a life or a baby, and I believe that I was carrying one, is sort of a Satanic way of demeaning God, not being true and not really believing in God. Those things all entered my mind, and I just had to shut them out of my mind and just pray hard, hard, and just talk to God, and say that I want you to take my baby, keep it until I can take care of it. Just really pray hard. That I was doing the right thing and try not to let darkness or evil enter into it. But I just pray continually. I think it’s okay, though, because everything is okay with me now, and I feel happy and I’m strong and I feel great. And I’m getting on with my life and I’m doing exactly what I want to do.”
Sumi Hoshiko Our Choices: Women’s Personal Decisionsabout Abortion (New York: Harrington Park Press, 1993) 145
Four months
Below: method of abortion used in the fourth month
Jeannine Parvati Baker talks about New Age yogis and abortion:
“Allow me first to first turn my attention to the yoga community wherein it is all too common for women yogis (yoginis) to abort their babies …
I have watched many of my yogini sisters procure abortions knowing that it was breaking the primary vow of ahimsa (harmlessness) that yogis make. They justified their actions with the confused philosophy of reincarnation and “free will.” In other words, they said that the soul knew “on some level'” what it was getting by choosing incarnation into a woman who did not want to be a mother just yet. Therefore “on some level'” the fetus being aborted accepts being returned back into the cosmos. Some yoginis have even had the hubris to state that their unwanted fetus was a “very advanced soul” who only needed to be incarnated for a very short time to complete its karma here on this plane of existence. Adding insult to injury they go on to state that they have done it a service by providing the soul with a temporary body to “finish up.” Maybe their unwanted baby was a samurai in a past life and by being aborted (by dilation and curretage), it is completing its own slicing karma (!) I am constantly amazed at the cleverness of the mind in justifying its own desires. Calling an aborted fetus a “high soul” not needing full deliverance on earth is an example of confused yoga.
Yoga clearly considers abortion killing–yet guru after guru condones abortion through metaphysical belief in reincarnation. “We only go around a thousand times so may may as well grab as much personal enlightenment as we can!” The most liberating belief in some ways is that this is our past life–with that philosophy we will do what is best for life now and not await our next chance, next lifetime….
How ironic it is that some yoginis will forego the eating of meat out of compassion for animals, yet this same sensitive compassion is not extended to unwanted babies…Having an abortion in order “to get my spiritual act together” is self-defeating”
Jeannine Parvati Baker “THE SWORD WAS NOT WITH THE GODDESS: A SPIRITUAL MIDWIFE ADDRESSES THE NEED TO HEAL ABORTION” Feminism & Nonviolence Studies Fall 1998 – Special Issue on Spiritual Diversity
“It was much more painful than I thought it would be. Jenny held my hand and I think the nurse held my other hand– she was very nice to me. I was pretty stoic about it but it was very painful, physically. I mean, everybody told me it was unpleasant but they didn’t tell me it was terrible. I mean, it didn’t last very long, but…
The doctor was just perfunctory. It was kind of depressing because obviously he was doing a series of these; he was clicking right through it… It probably would’ve been psychologically better if he would have taken a few more minutes before, a few more minutes afterwards.… I kind of felt – I analyzed this looking back – I feel like he’s taking no responsibility, well, no responsibility for his part in his relationship to you. Because just physically, he is doing this thing to you and he needs to take a little time with that. You need to know there is a person on the other end of this experience. A little warmth, too. That would have helped.
It’s a very vulnerable thing… You’re in the most vulnerable position in the world.… It doesn’t matter what they say, it’s still close to rape in terms of that sort of feeling of being gutted emotionally as well as physically… It was a real crushed feeling. I think that I had a moment of, well, I did think this was the most horrible thing in the world.…
And I felt a lot of pain afterwards. In fact I had to go in a couple of times because they thought maybe something had gone wrong or something, but nothing had. So I was worried for a quite a while.”
Sumi Hoshiko Our Choices: Women’s Personal Decisionsabout Abortion (New York: Harrington Park Press, 1993) 98 – 99
“Even if the experience is difficult, making the decision and going through an abortion can bring a time of change and growth.… It may create a new sense of self, a new identity as a woman, as a woman capable of handling the crisis and able to take charge of her life …
Choosing to have an abortion is, in a most fundamental sense, a way of having control over one’s life. Grasping even this bit of power over one’s destiny can strengthen the woman…
Abortion can be an act of personal courage… It is choosing to seek our greatest happiness; it means having the freedom to explore who we really are, who we truly want to be, to have the chance to push the limits of our potential. Pursuing happiness is not a selfish action; it is an act of love.”
Sumi Hoshiko Our Choices: Women’s Personal Decisionsabout Abortion (New York: Harrington Park Press, 1993) 21 – 22
For many women the regrets and wistful what-ifs they indulge in after an abortion rank slightly below, say, “What if I had chucked economics and majored in art?” Ask around, and you’ll find that more than a few women have abortions and get on with their lives – sometimes both in the same day,…
take the local lawyer who, at 27 with a great job and a devoted boyfriend and potentially doting grandparents nearby, chose to abort when she became pregnant after accepting a better job. Any regrets?
“Actually, I barely remember it. When people ask me if I’ve had one, my first instinct is to say no – not because I’m blocking it, but because, as opposed to all the emotional accounts I’ve read about abortion, mine was a non-event.”
Carolyn Hax, “No Birth, no Pangs; for Many Young Women, Abortion is a Given.” The Washington Post Mar 21 1993
An abortionist gave this as an example of a patient who waited until after 20 weeks to have an abortion:
…I had a patient who had an unplanned pregnancy, and she thought she and her partner could make it work. She was getting prenatal care, but at 20 weeks she found out that he was married, had children with his wife, and also had children with another woman. She had to totally re-evaluate her life plans. She had two children from a previous relationship who were a bit older, and she had been in a partnership to raise them, and now she was looking at, “Do I have this baby while I’m with this big fat liar? Do I have this baby alone?” So that she found out late that she need to reconsider her ability to have another child. And she needed a long time to think about it correctly … and she had complete support from her family. I am, again, day by day, impressed by the genuine concern and thoughtful deliberation of patients referring to this issue, and I was so impressed by her careful thought process and that of her family and support people. So she did; she did decide to have an abortion. It was later.
“Even though you hear about a lot of women saying: Well, I’ve had 4, I’ve had 6 abortions, and it’s almost like it’s no big thing – I feel that that’s just a façade. I feel that deep down they had to deal with that and they’ve had to resolve it.”
Sumi Hoshiko Our Choices: Women’s Personal Decisionsabout Abortion (New York: Harrington Park Press, 1993) 89
From a pro-life woman who believes in New Age Spirituality.
I once asked a “New Age” doctor who was involved in the holistic home-birth movement what it felt like to perform abortions. He had previously told me that he was just a “detached vehicle” for the operation and thought his work decidedly feminist as he was supporting the woman’s freedom of choice. I countered with the argument that to be totally “non-attached” is a task for a lifetime and perhaps not even preferable. Also that his karma, if any ego was involved, would reap negative fruit….But what does it feel like to perform one, I asked? “Crunchy” was his response….
Sometimes women buy Cytotec online and take it to try and induce abortions. Here are some tips for you and some advice.Before you buy Cytotec online and take it, there are things you should know. This is important information that can help you before you decide whether to buy this medication online and use it for abortion.
What many women don’t realize is that Cytoec was never meant to be used to induce abortions. It is extremely dangerous to take it for that purpose.The manufacturer of Cytotec, Searle, was so concerned about the risks to women that they put out a Press Release to Health Officials on August 23, 2000 saying that their drug was not meant to be used for abortion. It says in part:
Cytotec is not approved for the induction of labor or abortion….Serious adverse events reported following off-label use of Cytotec in pregnant women include maternal or fetal death; uterine hyperstimulation, rupture or perforation requiring uterine surgical repair, hysterectomy or salpingo-oophorectomy; amniotic fluid embolism; severe vaginal bleeding, retained placenta, shock, fetal bradycardia and pelvic pain.”
When you buy Cytotec online, you open yourself up to great risk.
If you want to buy Cytotec online, you should know that depending on the length of pregnancy, Cytotec on its own is only 65-85% effective. As many as one in three women will not expel the baby. A person who tries to buy Cytotec online and uses it may end up with severe pain and cramping, even heavy bleeding, without ever miscarrying. If this happens, you will need to go to the hospital for a surgical procedure to clear out your womb- basically, a surgical abortion. You may not even know if the Cytotec ended your pregnancy or not- especially if you are early in your pregnancy. Later in pregnancy, you may see your dead or dying baby- but you will not know if he or she had a twin who is still alive inside you or if tissue from the placenta is still inside you. Tissue left behind can cause a potentially life-threatening infection. You need to be aware of all of this before you buy Cytotec online.
Cytotec causes incredibly painful cramps, whether it works or not. Cytotec causes violent contractions similar to labor. Some women have said that it is worse than labor. Below are some women’s accounts of what they experienced taking Cytotec WITH Mifepristone. This drug Mifepristone, used several days before Cytotec, causes the placenta to release from the uterus. Without it, using Cytotec alone, labor is more painful, bleeding is more severe, and the failure rate is much higher. So your experience, if you buy Cytotec online, will probably be worse than these accounts:
This is from a woman who was the director of an abortion clinic:
Ten minutes later, [after taking cytotec] I started to feel pain in my abdomen unlike anything I had ever experienced. Then the blood came. It was gushing out of me. I couldn’t wear a pad…nothing was able to absorb the amount of blood I was losing. The only thing I could do was sit on the toilet. I sat there for hours…bleeding, throwing up into the bathroom trashcan, crying and sweating. ..
After several hours on the toilet, I desperately wanted to soak in the bath tub. …I had vomit all in my hair and on my legs, not to mention how sweaty I was. I filled the tub and climbed in. … I remember closing my eyes and leaning my head back. I felt exhausted. The cramps kept coming, but the water helped soothe them somewhat. I opened my eyes after 15 minutes and was horrified. My bathwater was bright red. It looked like I was sitting in the middle of a crime scene. And I guess it was…I had murdered my child.
I knew I had to get up and wash the blood off of me. I stood up slowly and straightened out my body. As soon as I was completely upright, I felt a pain worse than any other I had experienced. I began to sweat again and felt faint. I grabbed on to the side of the shower wall to steady myself. Then I felt a release…and a splash in the water that was draining beneath me. A blood clot the size of a lemon had fallen into my bath water. Was that my baby? I knew this huge clot was not going to go down the drain, so I reached down to pick it up. I was able to grasp the large clot with both hands and move it to the toilet. I stood in the warm shower for a few minutes…feeling a little relief from the cramping. Then came the excruciating pain again. I jumped out of the shower and sat on the toilet. Another lemon sized blood clot. Then another. And another. I thought I was dying. This couldn’t be normal. …I decided that I would call [the clinic] in the morning…if I didn’t die before then. It was around midnight and I had been in the bathroom for a good 12 hours. I knew I couldn’t leave yet. I didn’t want to lay in the bed…the bleeding was too heavy. And the clots were still coming; … I decided to sleep on the bathroom floor that night…right by the toilet. …. I was physically depleted, but I could not sleep….
Eight weeks passed. Eight weeks of blood clots. Eight weeks of nausea. Eight weeks of excruciating cramps. Eight weeks of heavy bleeding.
You should also keep in mind that using any kinds of drugs or alcohol with Cytotec is very dangerous. Therefore ,you won’t have much relief from the pain unless you want to endanger your life.
Here is another story from The New York Times. She had a surgical abortion and then had an abortion by Cytotec.
The pill for me was the experience of having a baby. Contractions for 10 hours, sweating, screaming, being by myself. It was emotionally scarring and physically horrible.”
She described using the abortion pill as:
“the worst experience, the most physically and emotionally painful thing, that I’ve ever been through.”
Again, she took Mifepristone along with Cytotec. Without the first drug, the experience may be even worse. Another story:
It was the most painful experience ever in my life. On top of emotional pain, when the second pill was taking effect, I had the most indescribable excruciating pain for more than 6 hours. It almost killed me… I wonder if child birth is even more painful than this… There was just so much pain that I could’t even cry…
Norine Dworkin-McDaniel told the story of her abortion by pill in Marie Claire. She was pro-choice and thought she would have no problems.
I envisioned recuperating on the couch with some uncomfortable but bearable cramps and soothing myself with s bad daytime TV.”…
I never made it to the couch.
“Nothing – not the drug literature, the clinic doctor, not even my own gyno – had prepared me for the searing, gripping, squeezing pain that ripped through my belly 30 minutes later. I couldn’t even form words when her boyfriend] called to check on me. It was all I could do to gasp, “Come home! Now!” For 90 minutes, I was disoriented, nauseated, and, between crushing waves of contractions, that I imagine were close to what labor feels like, racing from the bed to the bathroom with diarrhea.”
Then, just as quickly, it was over. The next night, I started bleeding. I bled for 14 days. A follow-up ultrasound confirmed that I’d aborted. And that’s when the problems really began.
… [But] what blindsided me, apart from being battered by the mifepristone, with a huge, cystic boils that soon covered my neck, shoulders, and back. I was also overcome by fatigue – an utter lack of ability to do anything more strenuous than sleep or lie on the couch. My brain felt so fuzzy – English seemed like a 2nd language, and I couldn’t work. On top of all that came depression; I sobbed constantly. I wouldn’t leave the house. I stopped showering.
It was only when I described my symptoms to my gynecologist that I discovered my experience wasn’t all that unusual. (The Mifeprex literature didn’t even mention it) “I think it’s underreported, but probably one in 3 women have dramatic side effects,” he told me. My body was in total chaos.
Norine Dworkin-McDaniel “BETRAYED BY A PILL” Marie Claire (US), Jul2007, Vol. 14 7, p184-186
All 4 women above were pro-choice. 3 still are. But they had terrible experiences with Cytotec and so have so many other women. And even doctors have said bad things about the Cytotec. Abortionist Tom Tvedten said the following inThe New York Times:
With medical termination, the discomfort is significant because they have to go through mini-labor,”
Dr. Tvedten said. ”There’s a lot of hard cramps and usually significant bleeding. It’s cheaper, safer and less painful to have a surgical termination.”
But before you have ANY type of abortion, you should know what is going on in your body. Here are some facts and pictures about the development of the baby inside you. All of this information is taken from the website Endowment for Human Development. This is not a religious site nor is it affiliated with the pro-life movement. It is an educational website with footage from National Geographic. You should read this before you buy Cytotec online
6 weeks
At just 21 days after conception, only a short time after a woman has missed her first period, the baby’s heart begins to beat. By six weeks, the baby has a developing brain and brainwaves. The liver is also functioning at this time.
At just 7 weeks, the baby is fully formed. She has tiny arms and legs, complete with developing fingers and toes. At this stage, her brain is rapidly growing. She will respond to touch at just 6 weeks and 6 days. She will move her hands and feet. Of course, she is so tiny that you won’t feel her moving yet. But she moves and kicks. At this stage she has ovaries if she is a girl. She can get the hiccups. Ears and eyelids (to close the eyes that have been there for several weeks) are now forming. She is a tiny, living baby with internal organs and all her external parts.
At 8 weeks, the baby is already right or left handed. Movements become more complex as the baby can now roll over and move her whole body. Kidneys produce urine. The body is fully formed.
8 weeks
At 9 weeks, the baby makes breathing motions. If the baby is a girl, she has a uterus of her own. Vocal cords are forming. The baby begins sucking her thumb. If you are nine weeks pregnant you have a fully formed child inside you who sucks her thumb and reacts to touch. She also opens her mouth and yawns.
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At 10 weeks, fingernails and toenails grow and fingerprints form. The baby has her own unique fingerprints, different from those of any individual who has ever lived or ever will live.
At 11 weeks, you can tell by looking if the baby is a boy or a girl. Sonograms aren’t high resolution enough to pick this up, but the sex organs are discernible in endoscopic pictures like in the video above. The entire body of the baby now responds to touch. A video, The Silent Scream, has been recorded showing a baby on ulrasound at this age struggling to get away from abortion instruments and reacting with pain from being torn apart in the abortion.
At 12 weeks, teeth develop. Bone marrow forms. The baby has every organ and body part he or she will ever have. She is fully developed and only needs time to grow bigger and for her lungs to develop and become stronger.
At 16 weeks, the baby sleeps and wakes. By 23 weeks, we know the baby has dreams. By 5 – 6 months, (20-24 weeks) the baby reacts to loud noises. A few months later, he or she will learn to recognize her mother’s voice. She also has hair.
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Soon after this point, the baby will start to react to light. If you shine a bright light on your stomach at 26 weeks, the baby will react.
The youngest baby ever to survive was born at 21 weeks. More babies are saved at 22 weeks and by 24 weeks, up to 70% of babies survive. If you use cytotec after 22 weeks, you may deliver a living, breathing baby.
Please consider these facts before you buy Cytotec online.
So you see, cytotec is harmful to you and fatal to your baby. But what if you are in a tough spot? There are places that can help you, centers run by volunteers who want to help women in difficult pregnancies. They can help with all kinds of things- counseling, baby items, a place to live, maternity clothes, diapers, all kinds of things.
I hope you will make the best choice for yourself and your own safety. Cytotec is dangerous drug that causes extreme pain and suffering to those who take it. Everything you have read is made even worse by the fact that when you buy ANY drug online ,you don’t know if anything has been added to it. You may try to buy Cytotec online, only to get a product that contains something even more harmful and potentially dangerous than the Cytotec itself.
Toxic materials and “fillers’ might be used to distribute the drug to more and more people. It is not safe ordering ANYTHING from an online pharmacy. Even a reputable pharmacy may not warn you about the dangers of this drug. If you buy Cytotec online, you will have no guidance at all on how to take it.
Before you make your final choice on whether to buy cytotec online, I want to leave you with these words from a woman who had an abortion. When asked what she would say to other women considering it, she said:
Never killed the child. It will haunt you the rest of your life… Recognize that, if you have the abortion, you’re not only killing your child, you are killing someone’s brother/sister, someone’s cousin, someone’s friend, someone’s grandchild, someone’s mother, someone’s father, someone’s neighbor. Realize that abortion is killing children…”
Jeanne G Miller Lives Interrupted: the Unwanted Pregnancy Dilemma (Tyler, Texas, 2014) 126
Please consider all these things before you buy Cytotec online. Is it really worth it to buy Cytotec online?
