A woman who gave her name as May tells her story:
“I was raised in the Catholic Church and knew what I was doing was wrong, but selfishly did it anyway. Turning my back on God, even for that one instant, was the biggest mistake of my life…
My boyfriend was perfect. He never mentioned the word abortion and began planning right away how we would take care of our child.
I listened but never heard him. I decided on my own that I would have an abortion. He tried to talk me out of it and even at the last minute asked me if that’s what I really wanted. I think what makes it even harder is that it was my choice and I can’t blame anyone else.
The procedure was so easy, too easy. I felt no pain but at the same time, I lost all emotions. Immediately afterward I tried to forget. I stopped going to church and convinced myself that everything worked out for the better. What a joke, I now know the truth and it hurts more than any physical pain ever could.
Every baby, every pregnant mother, every day reminds me of what I so carelessly threw away: a life. All I wanted is my best friend back. That best friend was God. I know God forgives and I know the church will accept me back with open arms, but how do I forgive myself?”
Martha Jensen Abortion: Information and One’s Own Journey (2020)
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