Category: Women’s Stories

From one woman who had a second trimester abortion:

“When my parents found out, my dad took me to DC where abortions are legal until 20 weeks. I was put in a large room with about 20 women and one by one we were taken back for the abortion and then brought back in. Each woman came back holding their stomach and crying. The process was quick and heartless.

I suffered for two years with depression that went untreated. It has been the most painful and traumatic experience of my life. But I want anyone that reads this to know I do not regret my choice. I did choose life…I chose my life.”

Casey Gueren “Here’s What It’s Really Like To Have An Abortion” Buzzfeed January 21, 2017

A Christian woman who aborted a twin pregnancy describes how she felt before and after the abortion:

“The nurse told me that I was having twins and it scared me to death. How could I raise three when I could barely raise one on my own? I based my decision purely on being able to take care of them financially. I was also ashamed of myself and thought how others would react to see the daughter of a minister pregnant again one year after having her first child [unmarried].…

The church played a huge part in my life. My parents are both ministers, so I was not a stranger to God’s word… Even though I knew God then, I did not have the faith back then that I have now to step out on.…

For years, I suppressed the guilt of turning away from a gift from God. I thought about how old they would’ve been and wondered how they would’ve looked. These thoughts would bring instant shame and guilt upon me. I struggled mostly with my faith in God. How could I speak to others about what God wants if I was unable to do it?”

LaDina Anderson Killing Grace: A Rise To Restoration (2016) Kindle edition

Michelle Borquez wrote a book about grief after abortion. She says of her own abortion:

“There has been nothing in my life quite as painful as the memory of my own abortion. It was too painful to bear. I couldn’t even imagine myself having done such a thing. I had buried the memory of it.”

Michelle Borquez Abortion to Mercy, (2013) Kindle edition

Marcie Schneider writes about her abortion:

“I continued to have sex and became pregnant for the second time, less than six months after my first abortion. This time I had a friend who was also pregnant, so we went to the abortion clinic together. … I remember everything about that day. I remember looking at the doctor’s face, and I remember that he never spoke a word. I remember how it felt looking around the cold, impersonal recovery room and seeing the rows of beds occupied by girls and women like me. I remember the nurse who went from bed to bed, making insensitive comments and jokes.”

Michelle Borquez Abortion to Mercy, (2013) Kindle edition

She had a third abortion a year later, and now deeply regrets her abortions .

One woman who had an abortion as a teenager claims she doesn’t regret her choice. But she writes:

“It was a whole lot worse than anyone ever told me it would be or I ever thought it would be. They explain the procedure, but they don’t tell you how it will feel. They give you the choice whether to you want to be knocked out or just have the pelvic area numbed by local anesthesia so you can’t feel much. I went with a local, and it felt awful. The actual procedure hurt. It seemed like it took forever, but I guess it was only a three-minute procedure. While I was in there, I heard another girl totally freaking out. It was scary, man!

But I will never, ever forget the feeling I had when it was all over and everybody cleared the room and they told me to get dressed. I felt like dirt. I felt like the lowest thing. I went through the grieving process right then, feeling very alone. I was devastated emotionally… Having the abortion taught me that there are definite consequences for our actions. This was the first time in my life that I had to answer for anything. And you have to make a choice, you know.”

Julia C Loren The Note on the Mirror: Pregnant Teenagers Tell Their Stories (Grand Rapids, Michigan: Zondervan Publishing House, 1990) 70 – 71

From one woman who had an abortion:

“For years, abortion remained a dark place within me, an indefinable root of my pain because it’s consequences didn’t exist according to those “helping me” with my bouts of depression. Unbelievably, abortion was never brought up at any level by my doctors as a possible negative experience in my life, let alone the linchpin to my pain. The despair I felt when I had my abortion was nothing, according to the therapists and according to a society that accepts abortion as a legitimate answer to pregnancy. There was no grieving for me because the baby I was carrying was just “a blob of tissue,” “a mass,” “a cluster of cells” that, in my case, was adamantly unwanted by the father,

So, if abortion was such a walk in the park like everyone said, why couldn’t I stop the self-loathing that consumed me? Why did I have to have surgery for my infertility and suffer eight miscarriages before carrying my last two children to term? Why couldn’t I just emotionally “reappear” in my life as if nothing had happened, like I was told other post-abortive women did? What was wrong with me? Why did I feel so alone? Why couldn’t I let go?”

Jennifer O’Neill Healing through God’s Grace after Abortion (Deerfield Beach, Florida: Faith Communications, 2005) 1-2