From a collection of first-hand testimonies from women. These were gathered from a survey done by Priests for Life. They can be found on the Priests for Life website.
I was using a diaphragm (obviously wrong) got pregnant went to he doctor and was told I was the nurse made the appointment right then for me to abort 2 days following.
She asked me ” Do you want to have an abortion?” At the time I was so panic stricken I replied immediately, “Yes.” The days following were a nightmare my boyfriend literally hid and gave me no support whatsoever.
It was scary degrading and cold. I was so drugged up I walked out immediately after without signing out. I wanted to just get away from the place. I went a little crazy on the way home because they gave me pills to take for a week to stop the bleeding. I freaked at the thought of having to take something in my house that would remind me of what I did. After I slept 3 hours at home I felt a little better. I could think more rationally.
The day after my abortion was probably the last time I talked about it for 11 years. I stayed with the man who got me pregnant for 16 years following the abortion. We never discussed it. Not because I didnt want to He couldnt deal with it. I cried a lot for no reason, went though a lot of depression periods. I thought at the time I was losing my mind. I would go a few months fine.and then have major bouts of depression. I was on an emotional roller coaster like that for 11 years, always contemplating seeing a therapist of some kind. Since the abortion my eating habits are horrible. I think Im fat and have to lose weight all the time. Im 5 4 at 112 lbs. Im getting better with that though.
I found Jesus Christ 11 years later. I began to deal with what I did. Im still trying. Having the Lord has been the best medicine any doctor could prescribe. Im still having a very difficult time forgiving myself for killing my baby. Its something I have to deal with everyday but everything is possible with God!
I feel at this point there is a reason for everything.right now Im very much involved in the pro-life movement and the post abortion aspect of aborted woman. Ill soon be starting a post abortion support group within our church. Its so needed. There are so many hurting women out there.
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