They said it.
From a woman who regrets her abortion:
“When I had the ultrasound, I asked for the picture and a nurse said, ‘Seriously?’ A month later, he [the boyfriend] said he regretted it too. When I cry about it, I cry alone. He thinks it would make me sad to talk about, but I don’t want our baby to think we forgot.”
DAVE ANDRUSKO “Fathers of Aborted Babies Experience Devastating Pain and Regret” LifeNews NOV 25, 2013
Share on FacebookAnna C shares this picture of her aborted daughter:
Her name is May Lynn and she has a story. She was my daughter, murdered by me via abortion at 24 weeks. In light of these Planned Parenthood videos I want to share her story.
Hardly anyone knew and the few people that did, I lied to, never admitting that her blood was on my hands. I couldn’t even admit it to the hospital staff. I told everyone (only a handful of people) it was just a crazy misfortune.
She changed everything for me. Now I knew I had been lied to. Now I knew regret. Now I knew what I had done. I was a murderer. The heavy guilt of that hit me like a freight train.
It hit me the hardest when I woke up in the hospital bed with her in my arms and she was warm from my own body heat and for a moment I could pretend that I hadn’t done what I had done…. until I couldn’t pretend any more.
It hit me again when I called and begged the funeral home to unseal her casket so I could hold her one last time. Those precious, tiny fingers. That soft skin and tiny little mouth. Every time I hold my other children… but never her….
It hit me again when I buried her with only one person there to comfort me, my closest confidant who still didn’t even know what I had done.
It hit me again when I woke up in my car in the cemetery.
And again when my life had to keep moving and I felt to guilty to mourn her. Who has a right to mourn who they’ve killed? I thought…
It hits me every time I think about it and wonder what kind of little girl she would have been. Or think how she’d be getting her license to drive about now…
And she wasn’t the first. She was my 3rd child dead by my own hands. I’d never seen the reality of what I’d done because I’d never held them. It was easy to pretend that it had never happened. But this time, there was no denying it.
I struggled for years with the guilt. I still feel the regret. But I praise God to know how precious life is. I praise God that He extends mercy and grace to me. Even to me, a mother that would kill her own flesh and blood. I praise God that people are starting to wake up, and I praise God that Planned Parenthood is being revealed for what they are.
This is her story.
August 20, 2015
The clinic I had my abortion in told me my “fetus” was 7-8 weeks and being only 15 years old, I didn’t know what that meant. Afterward they told me I was actually 10- 12 weeks. I got very sick & was vomiting directly after the procedure, the room was spinning and I could barely stand. They pushed me out the door with a plastic bag for my trip home. I had severe pain and hemorrhaging afterward but was too embarrassed to go for help. I suffered with very serious depression & emotional issues for 20 years after.
Marci. who had an abortion at Planned Parenthood
A pro-choice author, who wrote a book on women’s experiences after an abortion, described how one woman felt grief after she aborted her baby. The young woman felt that pro-choice friends did not want to hear about her struggles after the abortion.
“… Karen cannot make sense of her grief. She says, “I hated being pregnant. I knew I did not want to have a baby. So why should I feel sad after the abortion?… I don’t understand the emotions, so I can’t very well explain them.” …
On either side of the abortion debate, people have invested so much energy in their beliefs that they may not want to hear anything that opposes those views. Karen has found this to be true on the pro-choice side. She says of her depression and confusion, “I wish it were okay to talk of such feelings in the feminist circles. It seems that for political reasons we cannot.” Some abortion advocates might interpret Karen’s feeling as a threat to the movement or as a sign of defection, when in reality, Karen’s support has not wavered at all.”
Eve Kushner Experiencing Abortion: A Weaving of Women’s Words (Binghamton, New York: The Haworth Press, 1997) 236 – 237
Share on FacebookA post-abortion woman tells her story:
“Since I had already enlisted in the Air Force, I thought I had to have an abortion in order to make something out of my life. My best friend drove me to the abortion clinic. It was like an assembly line. When the ultrasound was being performed, I asked to see it, but this wasn’t allowed. So much for “an informed decision.” Then I asked how far along I was. I was told I was 9 ½ weeks pregnant. That hit me hard. I started doubting and wanted to talk to my friend, but I wasn’t allowed to do that either.
When it was my turn, the nurse told me I was going to feel some discomfort, like strong menstrual cramps. The truth is that the abortion was more pain than I’ve ever felt in my life. It felt like my insides were literally being sucked out of my body. Later, I went into shock.…
I wanted my baby back… I named my baby. Later I found out this is part of the grieving process.
2 ½ years later, I ended up in the hospital with bulimia. I felt that no one had punished me for what I had done, so I was punishing myself.… my life was in shambles! I was suffering from post abortion trauma…
There is a healing process that comes from getting involved in the pro-life movement. I talked to youth groups and students and share my testimony. To them, and to you, I plead, “please don’t make the same mistake I did.”
“I Was 18 and Pregnant” “You Can Stop Injustice” Human Life Alliance Advertising Supplement 2010 4
Share on FacebookA book in which the author interviewed post-abortion women had the following story:
“Wanda’s first abortion experience was not easy, and she holds not only Stuart [her partner] responsible, but also the clinic. Wanda’s abortion occurred at 15 weeks. The procedure lasted 2 days. The clinic staff inserted laminaria in her cervix so that it would dilate overnight, and sent her home without preparing her for the terrible cramps she would feel. That evening, in great pain, Wanda called a hospital; the staff said she was having contractions. Wanda cannot believe the clinic didn’t warn her of this. The clinic’s staff members were impersonal. Their attitude was almost, “Here’s another one. Get her over with.” Wanda says, “It was like a cattle haul. They brought us in all at the same time.” Those in the waiting room could hear noises from the operating room. Wanda observes, “They didn’t have the room soundproofed. You could hear the machine. So was like waiting to be branded.” Once Wanda arrived in the operating room, the clinic staff did an ultrasound and told her, “The baby’s perfectly healthy.” Wanda thought sarcastically, “Thank you. That’s just what I needed to know.” Wanda saw the ultrasound picture of her 15 week fetus, which disturbed her. After the procedure, as Wanda awoke from the anesthesia, she anxiously asked a nurse, “Am I all right?” The nurse responded, “You’re fine,” and pouted, “You pulled my hair.” Wanda recalls thinking, “I’ve got bigger fish to fry at the moment.” She adds, “Even in my state I was like, “a little sympathy would be nice.”
Eve Kushner Experiencing Abortion: a Weaving of Women’s Words (Binghamton, New York: The Haworth Press, 1997) 42
Share on FacebookOne of the members of Feministing’s community in a comment posted on July 28 2008:
“I made an appointment at Planned Parenthood and scheduled it for Friday, December 17th; I will never forget that day. I looked more and more information up about the baby and that it had a heart beat and what it would look like and so forth and I shared this information with my boyfriend. I asked him what he thought about me keeping the baby and he said “I would resent you and I wouldn’t see us together in the future”…..
So from 8 AM until 7PM I had contractions. It felt like my insides were being torn out. I would fall asleep and be awaked [sic] by this horrible pain….
He decided to get a tattoo of a black rose on his arm and told me that it represented the abortion. I was infuriated. It’s much easier to scar your skin than to scar your soul and sadly my scar will never fade. I will always remember how alone I was, how he didn’t care how selfish he was and how he gave me a choice and I chose him.
It’s been four years now, and this august I would have had a 3 year old, so every time august rolls around or December I get very emotional about what happened.”
“It’s been four years now…” JivinJehoshaphat July 28, 2008
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A pro-choice author who had an abortion herself tells the story of Mindy, who experiences postabortion grief:
“Right after it was done, I was hysterical for how long?”
Kurt responds, “at least 30, 40 hours.” Mindy nods. “I just couldn’t function. I was hysterical, crying, and all that kind of crap.”
The emotional storm took her half by surprise. “It was worse than I thought it would be. I didn’t really think it would affect me emotionally as much as it did,” she muses, calling her response “a nightmare – a very big nightmare.”…
The intensity decreased after those first couple of days, except when commercials for home pregnancy tests or Planned Parenthood reminded her of her experience. She also had trouble on the projected due date, when she realized sadly, “Oh geez, I’d be giving birth right now.” One weekend near the one-year anniversary of her abortion, she read an article about women’s pregnancy choices. “That ruined my weekend, she recalls. “I thought that I had pretty much gotten over it. And then it all came back to me.”
Seeing kids and new mothers has also sparked memories and feelings. She pictures herself as the mother, thinking, “Maybe that would be me pushing the stroller.” The odd thing about her new desire for kids is that she has never wanted any. But after her pregnancy, she says, “Every time I saw kids, I was like; “Oh my God, a baby. It’s so cute.” She finds herself staring at infants often. This new interest in babies may stem from unresolved emotions; she might want a child because she feels grief or guilt for her abortion, and they find that her interest in babies will fade when these feelings do.”
Eve Kushner Experiencing Abortion: A Weaving of Women’s Words (Binghamton, New York: The Haworth Press, 1997) 11
Share on Facebook“I don’t think I’m even close to totally healing, but praying to the baby helps – it’s a safe time and I cry whenever I do. A little release, a bit at a time.”
Elissa, age 24, 5 months after her abortion
Eve Kushner Experiencing Abortion: a Weaving of Women’s Words (Binghamton, New York: The Haworth Press, 1997) 17
Share on FacebookFrom a book by a pro-choice author who collected the stories of women who had abortions, these are one postabortion woman’s words:
“The abortion itself was the worst part of the experience. I experienced it as a real violation, almost a rape.”
The author says:
She had been raped before, so she does not make the analogy lightly.”
Eve Kushner Experiencing Abortion: a Weaving of Women’s Words (Binghamton, New York: The Haworth Press, 1997) 185
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