I had an abortion because I became pregnant during an extra-marital affair. My gynecologist supported my decision and made an appointment with the abortion provider down the street. During the abortion I was emotionally numb, until I saw the ultrasound of my baby, at which time I began to wail and cry very loudly.
The abortionist asked if I was sure I wanted to do this…I cried out, “I have no other choice.” So he proceeded with the vacuum aspiration. The workers had not noticed that I arrived alone, and was trying to leave alone. In my car I realized that I was unable to drive because of the sedatives they gave me, so if it weren’t for my own concern I would have probably had a car accident. For months I was numb.
As time went on (6 months) I became very depressed and considered suicide. My family committed me to a psychiatric hospital in Atlanta, where I was placed on suicide watch. After no response to medication, doctors ordered electro-convulsive therapy treatments (over 20). For many years I was on multiple antidepressants and have seen several psychiatrists and psychologist. I have received treatment for PTSD by eye movement desensitization. I was referred to a post-abortion Bible study in Ft. Payne, Alabama, called “Forgiven and Set Free.” It was very painful, but I was blessed to have the support of many women and their husbands at a precious memorial service for my baby boy “Micah.”
Today I am a radical pro-life Christian who counsels women on the sidewalk and rallies church prayer teams during the 40 Days for Life Campaign.
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