Elizabeth became pregnant and had an abortion when she was in high school. Later, she had a second abortion. She says of the second abortion:
“Over the months… I had formed this bond with my baby. I used to talk to her and try to do things that would be good for her. I knew that I was going to get rid of her, but until then I wanted her to be healthy. This will probably sounds weird, but I really did love her…
I am now taking precautions so that this will not happen again. The emotional part was a lot worse than the first time because I had grown to know and love my baby. She was there when Bruce was not. But I could not keep her. Selfishness probably had a part in it, I must admit. Also, I will never forgive myself for the fact that Bruce’s father died…. I killed his granddaughter on the day that his life ended. I have always looked at it this way and I still feel guilty about it. I have also always thought that my baby would have been a girl. I guess you could call it a woman’s intuition or motherly instinct.”
Carl Jones Should I Have This Baby? (Secaucus, New Jersey: Carol Publishing Group, 1996) 9 – 10
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