Former Abortionist Speaks

And Then There Were None reaches out to men and women who are in the abortion field. They have helped over 44 clinic workers leave their jobs and find employment. They offer counseling, emotional support, material help, and help finding a job. See their website here.

Here is an email they received:

“I just wanted to let you know, you’ve touched my heart. For years…too many years to count, I murdered countless children..up until 3 months ago that is. I believed I was doing what was best at the time. I worked for Planned Parenthood.

I became hardened and cold to the fact, I was killing children. How I, a physician who had taken an oath to preserve life can perform abortions — can actually kill defenseless unborn babies — literally ripped out, many times in pieces, from the mother’s womb, is beyond me..but I see it now. Partial-birth abortions was my living. :'(

Finally one day, something hit me…and my hard-heart began to soften. After receiving a pro-life tract, and having read it; I got angry, but I didn’t throw it away. And then for some reason, I couldn’t perform abortions anymore.

I broke down that day and felt like I had died on the inside. Millions of emotions came at me and I had a weight of guilt, on my shoulders so heavy. So heavy, worse than any depression I’ve ever felt.

I felt like, for every baby I had taken from this world, a part of me died as well. I cry as I write this. I cry for the mothers, the fathers..who decided because of “choice” they would kill their children. I cry for the babies, who were brutally murdered at my hand. It takes a lot to admit that. ALOT.

Where is the churches? The outreach groups? Get out there! Do something. Please! Don’t say, “it isn’t my field” Shouldn’t it be every moral person’s responsibility, to defend the defenseless? And don’t tell me pro-life outreach doesn’t work, or tracts don’t help. It certainly did for me.

There’s not a day that goes by now, where my heart isn’t heavy with grief, or I don’t angry. I can only hope God can forgive me. If anyone deserves a hell, it’s the one who murders children.”

Please keep reaching out to clinic workers with kindness and compassion.

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Author: TA Smith

Sarah Terzo is a pro-life writer and blogger. She is on the board of The Consistent Life Network and PLAGAL +

One thought on “Former Abortionist Speaks”

  1. I just wanted to say that I have never been more moved by a former abortionist story. Your guilt and shame is so abundant, that it almost feels palpable through my phone. My heart TRULY goes out to you. I realize this was posted some time ago. And I do hope you’ve been able to forgive youself since then. Thank you SO VERY MUCH for sharing your story and for having the courage to admit what you did. May God bless you and continue to soften your heart.

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