One woman tells her abortion story, and writes about how mainstream mental health professionals failed to help her:
“After the abortion I woke up and was staring at a brick wall. I had never felt so dirty and disgusted with myself…
My life from that moment changed for the worse. I would drink myself to a point of hospitalization and each time I was admitted I would talk about the abortion. The doctors and nurses would tell me I needed to see someone about my issues. They couldn’t even say the word “abortion” to me. In one admission I wasn’t allowed to leave the hospital as they had fears for my safety. They had me speak with a psychiatrist before I left and he said I was fine and I seemed to be overreacting to the abortion and my work was the real issue. I looked blank at him and thought I’m just going to tell you what you want to hear so I can leave.
I spoke with many counselors, nurses, psychologists and psychiatrists and none of them understood me. In my mind no one could help me get through the anguish of having had an abortion.
I drank to excess at every opportunity… I knew the reason behind all the self-destructive behavior was the abortion, and I thought that’s all my life was going to amount to. I was so angry at my now ex-partner, abortion clinic and most of all myself for allowing this abortion to affect me so badly that I would deliberately put myself into positions to danger…
She went to a counselor who specialized in post-abortion healing and finally found peace:
I now have a plaque on a beautiful memorial at a church in Melbourne. This finally gave me some closure.
It’s only since I have acknowledged her and giving her a name that I’ve been able to move on. The memory will always remain.”
Anne R Lastman Redeeming Grief: Abortion and Its Pain (Balwyn, Vic: Australia: Gracewing, 2013) 210 – 211Share on Facebook